from
The Shame Song,
released November 11, 2016
There you are again, scratching on my window
In your coat made of shadows and deceit and fallen leafs
And I'm sitting on the floor, smoking
Have been awake for days and days
I've felt alone but I know you've been there
Hiding somewhere
Behind corners or under my sheets
Now the air I've swallowed has grown into a vacuum pressing hard against my chest
And I feel like I'm fading with every step I take
But I don't really give a shit, 'cause I've been numb now for more than one year and a half
I'm trapped in a season that never seems to pass
Are you winter or fall?
Are you something at all?
Why do you press my throat until my view's getting blurred?
Oh, you make me as small as a crack in a wall in the dark of a hall
And I feel just like you: Between winter and fall
And I remember the rain, hitting hard on the street,
Trading kisses like change, watching crappy TV
Then November it came to take you away
And now I watch the spring as it drowns everything
With the days dragging on like a slow marching drum
And there is nothing left to fill up my time or these holes in my mind
Oh, I am just like you: Another moment in time
November, it came
It fell from the rain into your veins
And it took you away
That circle unclosed,
That feeling untamed
And it's hard to pretend that I'm not angry at you
But I guess in the end we all just follow the rules